If im going to be honest, I might as well start from the beginning of the subject “Kyrzayda”. Back long ago, 2012 to be exact, when Kyrz was just hitting it off in her career, I wasn’t a big fan of her. I mean I never hated on her because her style was one of kind that could never be duplicated… trust me I try every time I shoot for Kyrz Closet hehehe. Long Story short Kyrz was not friendly with me on the day I went to her first launch party for her boutique, I literally left there crying!!! I never forget it, I even wrote a blog post on it when I was a blogger wannabe. This is definitely something I told her after I met her, and she apologized which I honestly wish she could take back. Upon knowing her really well, I understood her personality and I being dramatic AF, knew I took it too personal. The most important thing I learned in all this is that second chances are real as long as you are completely open to them, you cant half ass those.
Fast forward to December 22, 2017, I received an email that would struck my life in full circle ! Kyrzayda emailed me. I wanted to post it here but of course gmail won’t load it from the server. She emailed me looking for my photography services. I honestly did not know what to even say, think, or do. Here comes Kyrz emailing after I was not fond of her, but I know she is super poppin, and she would be a great opportunity for me to have her part of my credentials. Then there was her discovery of her cancer, that was a hard pill to swallow for me. I processed all of that for a day and realized that I have never been known to be a person to hold onto grudges and I just don’t know how to say no. I of course emailed her back saying HECK YESSS ! I’m glad I did… I had the pleasure of knowing one of the most caring, thoughtful, selfless person I could have ever had the pleasure of knowing.
Lots happened this month! We spent my birthday at the Time Hotel shooting content and my first time shooting a campaign collab she had with Olay skincare. I think this was the day I realized how truly passionate I am about photography and telling a story with it… her story.
I also was given the opportunity to work for her boutique and do all of her product photography and go with Kyrz to pick Spring and Summer merchandise.
(when we realized we were low key in a relationship) lmao
Kyrz and I had our first big fight… in Brooklyn…. in the car… omgahh!!! I never realized how similar we both were, dramatic, so emotional, and so invested in keeping our surroundings happy. That all happened in a 20 min argument in the car. There was crying, yelling, bashing…all of it. I honestly wanted take a train home and leave her ass in the middle of Brooklyn, but I obviously couldn’t. For those that don’t know, chemo takes a toll on your emotions and kyrz was exactly there and I really had to push my anger aside and understand what she was going through. I came back from my walk and we talked things through, hugged, and apologized because we were just that much of great friends in such a short period of time.
This was also the month I left on vacation for 2 weeks… lets just say we were both missing each other… face timed more than a normal couple would.
WELCOME TO MIAMI !
WHATTTT !!! What an opportunity to travel with her. Kyrzayda simply just treated me so well, allowed me to experience things that I never in a million years would ever think could happen to average people like me. Im telling y’all, she was an angel sent from heaven.
kyrz and I fell in love with the mofongo served here. Legit she would have booked a flight just to go eat it again. It’s really is that good. 📌(Pubbelly Sushi South Beach)
May & June 2018
May was filled with work work work… She never gave up, even when she was hurting or exhausted. I admired that so much from her, I even started to implement it in on my own life. I honestly can’t remember the last time I complained about a cold.
A Lifetime Surprise of Friends
Who remembers when Glency and Maracas surprised Kyrz!!! Wow that even made me cry. It’s so heart warming to see the amount of people who genuinely love Kyrz. She definitely had a piece of Kyrz heart and vice versa, she would always talk so highly of her. I also had the great pleasure of hanging and shooting with Glency and getting to know her a bit other than seeing her all over the head lines and my cousins talking non stop about her and her diva life ! Thank you for always being so supportive of Kyrzayda…Ella te queria PILA!!!!
August was bitter sweet… It was a tough month for all us who were close to her. We all had to face a truth that no one wanted to believe. It was a month we would celebrate another year of her life, a MILESTONE. A moment she didn’t know if she would ever get to experience, but we did and it was UNFORGETTABLE!
Another unforgettable moment was when Joanne and I went to surprise Kyrz at the hospital for a bday celebration the nurses had for her. Boy were we the ones surprised. It was the moment when we got news Kyrz would officially go on hospice. I mean how does anyone celebrate birth and death all in one day. You can already imagine how many tears I wept outside.
If I leave you with anything I learned throughout my journey of being by Kyrz side and taking it all in… is that you must DO. Simple. You must keep going, you must keep trying, you must stay consistent, and you must NEVER GIVE UP.
What gets me about Kyrz passing is the powerful strength she endured, MIND, BODY, AND SOUL. Guys I still cant get over the fact that we shot days before her passing. It might have been the most hardest shoot, but it was so damn SPECIAL ! She kept putting it off for months due to priorities and her health, but we did it… She wanted to take photos with Kamilla, her granddaughter. We did it. She put on those heels and walked down and up those stairs and we did 4 looks !!! I mean I’ve never seen that kind of strength in my life, only once… and it was my friend Kyrz.
September 9th, 2019
“Kyrz I’ll be back in an hour, I love you amiga”.
Her last words to me “I love you too”
We never said goodbye, it was an I’ll see you later, and it was the sweetest one of all.
Kyrzayda, thank you for all that you have been to me. Thank you for opening a space for me in your life. You have taught me things that I would have never been able to learn anywhere else because humans are just not like you. They are not selfless like you were, they are not knowledgable like you were, and most of all they are not as stylish as you were.
I just really have one thing to ask you…what bottoms can I pair this floral top with?
I MISS YOU AMIGA ! TQM